Guilt!

Today's card found me when I was looking for a flower image to put on my Tubby Town profile. As I explained in an earlier post we've got a little team competition going on weight loss, known as a 'Challenge' in Tubby Town-speak and I'm in the Fabulous Foxy Flowers team and needed to find a pretty fuchsia coloured flower for my profile pic.  We've all changed our pics to represent the team flower.

As the Tarot Dieter I wanted to find a tarot card with a Foxy Flower on it, so I went to Google images and lo and behold this card leaped out at me.  It's from the beautiful Dreaming in Color oracle deck by Mindy Sommers and, very appropriately, is labelled (and represents) Guilt.

That's me at the moment. I've been a very bad dieter these past two weeks and haven't lost anything since the first week of the Challenge. And I know I've let my fellow Foxy Flower teamies down.  And we have been beaten by the Sleepy Sunnies for the last two weeks and I do feel Guilty for my contribution to that.  Even though the tarot predicted it a couple of weeks ago (see 5 June 'Well done' post), forewarned hasn't been forearmed in my case.

This card - Guilt - is the perfect dieter's card. Dieting is, after all, all about Guilt and eating (and drinking) what you're not supposed to.  Guilt is one of the dieter's best friends (and sometimes worst enemy).

So I am going to pull a tarot card for the Foxy Flowers this week to give some guidance and insight as to how we might do this coming week.  I 'm going to use my new (and as yet unused) Tarot of the Sidhe (pronounced Shee), created by the very lovely Emily Carding.  Sidhe are magickal beings and are often referred to as faeries.  Given that we want to be as light as faeries, this seemed to be a good deck to guide us.

Our card is Dreamer Seven.  This is a card about subterfuge, secrets and cunning.  This is the message for us Foxies - don't kid yourself.....crumbs do contain Fat Pills.....children's leftovers do have to be counted in your daily intake....that chocolate will make a difference.

And we all do it, don't we?  We think that if we don't include it in our Fat Pills no-one will notice. But of course the scales do.  So, lovely Foxies - the message this week is that we should all be honest with ourselves.  Even if we do have too many Fat Pills, we should account for them and face up to what we are doing.  There is a moon in the background of this card which is often a symbol of delusion. We shouldn't delude ourselves, which is what I've certainly being doing this past couple of weeks.  Peanuts in the pub and not bothering to count the Fat Pills because "It was only a few...".   Forgetting that last glass of wine.  Just one biscuit won't hurt.

So this little fuchsia is going to turn over a new leaf this week.  Literally.  Good luck to all the other Foxy Flowers!

Dear Maureen....

Today's card is dedicated to the Tubby Town website, courtesy of the traditional RWS (Rider-Waite-Smith) deck which, for me, has the best imagery for the website this week.  It's the 'you're f**ked' card, and that pretty well describes the Tubby Town website this week.

In Tubby Town there is a website where you can enter how many Fat Pills you eat and drink each day and the website will add it up for you and keep a running total of how many Fat Pills you've used and how many you've got left. it's a very valuable tool.

Well, this week the website kept refusing to save my data and kept losing it.  I complained and the Tubby Town computer geeks kept sending me different fixes to try, none of which worked. By Friday I had pretty well lost track of where I was Fat Pills-wise. When I logged in on Friday morning it wouldn't let me go onto the site until I had deleted all my Fat Pills data that hadn't come from their own Tubby Town database. Thinking this was a clean-up to solve my 'save' problem I duly did so and is it then obliterated all said data - including stuff it had previously saved. When I finally logged in I found out that everyone in Tubby town had been forced to do this.  Apparently a technological melt-down.

But even more idiotically, they couldn't retrieve people's data. Hard to believe in this day and age that they don't do site back-ups or had no way of getting it back. So, they sent me an apology e-mail addressed to "Dear Maureen...."  That just rounded it off really, my name isn't Maureen.

The Tipping the Scales Point

The scales;  Our best friend and also our worst enemy.  Today's card is chosen from the beautiful Psy-Card oracle deck. This card stands for justice, balance and moderation. Ah - moderation - what we should all be doing with chocolate and wine and all those other high Fat Pill value items.

My scales gave me a fright this morning.  When hubby got up early this morning I got up just to weigh, stepped on the scales and they showed a gain. I stood on and off them several times, and it was definitely a gain.  I couldn't believe it, an SP (Sneaky Peek) two days earlier had shown a loss. So I went back to bed worrying about having to post this to my Foxy Flower team-mates in the weight loss competition and feeling that I had really let them down.

Two hours later I got up and stepped on again. This time they showed a 1lb loss. This was more what I had expected.

I think that two hours previously I was probably holding some of the 3 litres of water I had drunk the day before.  As I'm only a virtual Tubby Towner, on-line only, I can choose my weigh-in time - but imagine people who go to a Tubby town meeting and have just that one opportunity each week to check their progress.  And at that very moment that you step on your scales, your body might be holding water or feeling bloated and so shows a gain rather than the loss you deserve. That must be so disheartening.

So, some advice from the cards about this. The Psy-card Scales are also about fairness - in our case it's unfair that the scales aren't registering the loss we deserve and that our looser clothes tell us we have.  The message from the Psy-cards is that there is justice which in time makes things right, and what we should do is be patient for these natural laws to operate.  All things balance out, and the loss that isn't showing this week will show next.

Good Luck to everyone else who has a date with their Scales today.

Well Done Foxy Flowers

Well done to the fabulous Foxy Flowers who won the Tubby Town weight loss competition for this week, with a whopping 52 tubbies lost.  What Fantastic Foxy Flowers.

It looks like the chocolates from Angel Bethany to the Sunnies worked their magic (see previous post earlier today). 

So let's have a card for the week coming for the Foxies.  Today's guest tarot deck is the Llewellyn, which has beautiful water colour painted cards.  I shuffled the cards and drew one at random. 

We have drawn the Ace of Pentacles.  Pentacles are to do with money or material / practical matters. Aces represent new beginnings and that hand coming out holding the Pentacle - well it does look a bit like a Sunnie doesn't it?  I sense they might be a bit phoenix-like in the coming week after this week's result, so no room for any of us Foxies to slack.  Otherwise this could well be the Sunnies week coming up.

Good luck to both teams but sending the biggest four-leaf clover to the Foxies (of course)!

Today is YOUR day

Some of the lovely ladies in Tubby Town have set up a competition where two teams compete over a 6-week period to see which team can lose the most weight.

I'm in the Fabulous Foxy Flowers team and we're a beautiful bloom of a pink and purple variety.  Our competitors are the yellow Sleepy Summer Sunnies. I wish both teams good luck and may the best team win - which of course will be the Foxy Flowers.

I must admit, being in a team and the thought of letting others down is helping. It's making me think twice about what I eat (ok, well drink).  I have been a bit casual with my Fat Pill-popping recently and this new team commitment has made me be more disciplined. So thank you lovely Tubby Town ladies for organising the competition.

After a good day tubby-wise yesterday, managing to stay within my Fat Pills allowance, I'm feeling full of PMA today - that's Positive Mental Attitude in Tubby Town speak. So today's words of wisdom from the cards will be drawn from my deck of 'Angel' cards. These aren't tarot cards, but are oracle cards with messages from the Angels.  Angel card messages are always full of PMA, and today's message is for all the lovely Tubby Towners - but particularly for the Fabulous Foxies this sunny Sunday morning.


I shuffled the cards and drew one randomly.  And what a lovely message from Angel Bethany. It says "When you take excellent care of yourself, everybody benefits. Give yourself a relaxing treat today, such as a massage, sea salt bath, or pedicure. And for the Sleepy Sunnies there's always chocolate"

OK, so I added the last sentence myself, but the rest came from Bethany.

So Foxies and all you lovely Tubby Towners, the message for today from Angel Bethany is that now is the time to give to yourself. Take care of yourself, open yourself out to rest and relaxation, and "don't allow yourself to be swayed from this important mission".

Go Foxies Go!

Back to Track

After a good start at the beginning of the week I have just fallen apart diet-wise.  Too much wine on Friday and a night out last night and I've just about blown my Fat Pills allowance for the rest of the week.  So, lovely tarot can you help me get back on track please. Today's guest deck is the Universal Waite, one of the first tarot decks I bought.

The first card I drew is The World, and what very good guidance this is.  This card represents the end of a phase in one's life and the threshold of a new one. In Tubby Town terms, this is the equivalent of drawing a line under the damage done and crossing over it. This is well illustrated by the card, where the figure is standing poised in front of the wreath - which represents the line - ready to cross over.

I then drew a second card for more guidance - The Knight of Swords.  This is me coming off track, foolhardy and rushing in headlong without thinking.  Ignoring my inner voice which is telling me to stop now, but - like the Knight - I don't.  Ignoring the consequences I pour myself another glass and eat another crisp.  Swords in tarot  represent intellect and rational thought, and for a fairly intelligent person I can be very unintelligent about dieting sometimes, especially when wine and crisps are involved.  And I know that I'll pay for this weekend on the scales on Tuesday.

All I can do now is follow The World and step over the line and embrace a new beginning today. What's done is done. Don't look back, don't make it worse, just move on and start afresh today.  Wishing myself luck!

It's Comforting

Today I am comfort eating. I know I am, I'm not hungry - if anything I feel a bit bloated - but I just can't stop myself.  After a slightly upsetting little event (nothing serious), I am consoling myself with food. I know it's comfort eating by what I'm fancying - chocolate ice cream, pizza, wine.  I rarely eat things like this (nothwithstanding the wine of course).

It's only lunchtime and I've eaten 12 Fat Pills already.  I need to stop and now as I've got no spare 'weeklies' left to cover any over-indulgences.

I am struggling, so I consulted the cards for advice.  The deck I'm using today is my favourite Tarot of Ceremonial Magick.  This deck always gives me very, very strong, powerful readings - and I need all the strength I can get today.

The card I drew (randomly of course) - the Queen of Cups - corresponds with the zodiac sign of Cancer; she represents a very loving, romantic, emotional woman. A very kind, caring person.  Think Princess Diana - both strengths and weaknesses - and that's the Queen of Cups.

So, the cards are telling me to get control back of my emotions (Queens are generally in control in some way).  So, I need to get control of what I am feeling in order to stop the comfort eating.  As long as what I'm upset about remains a problem in my eyes, then the eating will continue. So, tackle the root cause and the eating will resolve itself.

This little problem isn't insurmountable. I can't change what happened so I need to just get over it as they say.  And it certainly isn't worth gaining tubbies over at my next weigh in.  The comfort eating isn't even making me feel better, so I need to replace it something that does.

***Light Bulb Moment!***

Yesterday I bought some new make-up which, in the event, I didn't get to use. So - I think I'll go and put some of it on now as I'm going out with friends this afternoon. The new make-up will make me feel better in myself, and will also keep my itchy little fingers out of the fridge.

Queen of Cups (or queen of something) here I come!